""All That I'm After is a Life Full of Laughter, As Long as I'm Laughing with You"

First of all, I apologize if your frustrated by the fact that most of my posts these days are about a girl, well if you even read my blog, if you don't then your probably not even reading post so we got that cleared out.

Well first off, today i saw this Malay movie called "Sekali Lagi", there are too many important facts about this movie if i were to describe it to you, so I'm not, but its has this one scene that pulled my heart, it was a flashback scene of this couple, a time when they were still at school, and the time where their love started. its like how i imagine MY perfect love story XDD

You know how people dream about their dream jobs, about who they want to be. Me? I dream about having a love that started young, and would never end, and living that life with the ones i love, family, unrelated family, friends all that cliche shit

Well since my last post, i realized that i'm losing contact with my sudanese friends, the only people i STILL  contact that used to live in sudan is izzana and sofia

on another topic, i feel, i dunno, empty/lonely i guess??? dunno why but i do, like theres SOMETHING i need to do, something to take care of

wanna hear a story?? or well like my imagination?
when i was a kid i used to dream/imagine that i was this type of elemental ninja hero ( i still do, sometimes only these days its more hardcore) i always imagine its lke me and 2 of my friends fighting countless enemies with our swords and powers to save a girl (shut up, i know its cliche)

Schools been good to me, but right now its the summer holidays, so i have nothing much to do except watch tv, facebook, clean up teh house, and wait, for a number of things such as school and well her

I Miss Her.....

oh yeah, some people want to know more about my niece, wel shes about 4 months old now, but shes damn smart and and she can always stand now, and is attempting to crawl now, and i am a bad uncle to her MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHH, shes damn cute, when she watches tv she actually talks to the tv XDD

well theres nothing more to talk about, oh yeah ITS RAMADAN NOWW, RAMADHAN KAREEM, RAMADAN  MUBARAK, and yeah thats it



3 more weeks, I Miss You....

MY NEW NIIEEEECE and "Her"

Hey guys wazzzupppp
hows your temporary life holdin up?? folks doing ok??

so since teh last post and this post i havent done much but its AWESOME to say the least XDD
i'm on my week long half term break now which is pretty good as i get maximum time to chat with my friends (in other words her) XDD

For sum reason every weekend is a busy time for me, i mean teh people every where make their weddings during the weekend i mean its tiring =.=
usually after a wedding my whole family slouches on the couches and beds and just like watch tv or sleep,

in another unrelated topic, school is still awesome, got closer to my friends and now i know more of them and i'm pretty good friends with feisal, hakeem, haziq (if you people think hes my cousin youre wrong, its another haziq) and danial (also another danial)
we had a picture day taht one time and was supposed to bring a prop that were proud of, i actually forgot the morning of the day, so i jus brought my bag and made up sum crap about "i'm proud to be back in school sir" and it was totally original since noone else brought a bag so take that sucka XDD

deena asked me to put her in thsi post just for fun so big shout out to her and the KASians Nations

so back to uh what we're we talking about??? baaah i'll just move on to another topic
i guess i had my first free call using skype which was awesome, i called her and my dear old friend Mrs. Holmes XDD i'm actually jealous of Mrs.Holmes over there cuz she can make her laugh better than i can =.= must be the time they spent together compared to my month long of being in a 1 kilometer perimeter of her which is total bullcrap, shouldve spent more time around her, we talked alot that nite, i was waiting for her then randomly Mrs. Holmes there came in at first i was liek WTF IS this, then i remembered the short nice person who wore glasses that i always had fun with while i was there, we talked about how MRSM was and at one time Mrs. Holmes got caught by some one and th two of us were like "KANTOIIIIIIIIII" we also tried video calling but found out we had to pay for it which is total bullcrap, i was the only guy there the whole nite but i was happy cause i heard the voices of the my friends again, it was awesome, they kept changing theyre skype pic though, she was changing her pictures of food (which made have excessive drooling issues) and Mrs. Holmes was changing her skype picture alot of times until i cant even remember which ones she put =.=  i think we started at like 11-12 o clock and finished at like 1 XDD, and it was a school nite, i couldnt remember if it was the exam nite though, it was a still a pretty awesome skype seesion though thanks to Mrs. Holmes and her XDD


speaking about her i should really explain who she really is,
shes a girl i met at MRSM, i think most of you guys who read this blog should already know that i went to a boarding last year called MRSM Baling, which is in Kedah, Malaysia.
thats the place i met her, i'm not sure if i explained it here in this blog but i think i might have mentioned it verbally with most of you guys but i'll just explain it here just in case you dont know or remember

so i went to the boarding school rite?? it was ok at first but i was having trouble cuz i felt so left out cuz everyone took the UPSR and got straight A's when i got accepted just because my dad got a favor from the director of the joint. i'll just skip ahead until first saw her

we all had to go to the library cuz teh teachers told us to, when we got into the library it was as full as crap but me and my newly made friends found a table by ourselves and jst sat there, we were foolinga round like usual until one of my friends said "thats the girl i was talking about earlier" so i looked and saw her, i dont think he was taking about her, but as i saw her i jst couldnt take my eyes off her, the first thing that came to mind was "she cant be 13, i mean shes looks to mature (matang) to be 13" i know2 its weird but its teh truth XDD, as the days passed i saw her from time to time (note: just saw not talk or anything) especially because she was hanging out with my "sisters"
at the time i was having a crush on another girl, but i'd nvr thought i'd have a REALLY BIG HULK SIZED CRUSH on her even though she was pretty cute (but i didnt notice it at the time) but the first time we talked was after Bahasa Malay class, i made a really bad single quartet poem but it made everyone laugh (since the teacher just HAD to show it to everyone) so after class, she made fun of me because of the poem, and started calling me by one of the line of teh poem which was "unta goreng" (fried camel) but i didnt mind, i mean i liked the attention (and by a girl too oolala XDD) i still saw her at the corridors occasionally and she would always giggle in that cute way of hers and recite the poem which made me all teh happier, when i actually had a real conversation with her was when i went to classroom beside mine and found her there, actually i just went there with a friend just for fun and made good friends with the guys there so i just stayed in their classroom during studying time even though we (ok I) didnt do much studying, i just watched her studying, for sum reason evryone called her "alien" i aksed them why and they said because of her name (i am not writing her name here, cuz your all gonna search for her in facebook =.=) so i started calling her alien too, she also had this foamy donut taht was a mirror on the inside taht i was continuosly stealing cuz it smelled gooooood (it had its perfume) and also because its really soft XDD we found out we can both say the long word from mary poppins and i grew to really like her (as friends at the time) and i would always sit in front of her during studying time and probably bother her while shes doing homework (yes i know i'm evil) and as time grew by i noticed she was annoyed by me and tried to do her homework away from me which totally makes sense since i am annoying but i was sad all the same, i tried impressing her with my shuffling (apparently i was one of teh only people in the school who could shuffle) but she wouldnt take notice of me, i was depressed for a few days, i got over her in week and den moved back to sudan cuz i hated the school and that chapter of my life ended, little did i know i would find her on facebook like 2 months later and have a crush on her again.


DUDES THIS JUST IN, MY NEW NIECE IS HOME AND SHES SO SMALLLLL I'M GOING TO CUDDLE WITH HER NOW BYEEEEE

SO TIRED
but still awesome XDD
havent heard from izzana for along time
hope shes ok :(


back to a happier note, I LOVE SCHOOL, i have a lot of frens there and its just plain awesome there, well sum of teh teachers are assholes but every school has those so i'm okay i guess, theres gonna be a FIELD TRIP NEXT MONTH WOOOOOOOOOOOH
i love nexus but im having trouble finding a name for the students of nexus, like you know the Victoria Institution's students are called Victorians and the KAS names is KASians XDD
so what shall we call nexus students??? Nexusians??? Nexusrians?? Nexuse?? Nex??
meeeh what ever


ME SO HAPPY
me uhh what should i call it ummm Special Someone (S.S) is back, YAAAAAAAAAYYYY
i almost forgot about her actually but teh feeling came back once i talked to her again XDD
aahhhhh i love long malay school holidays, it gives me happiness for a short amount of time XDD
this morning i was smiling stupidly mandarin cuz she was online, and i was doing bad imitations of the song "rhythm of love" XDD jst ask danial, he noticed it the most XDD

so i guess dats all that happened this past few weeks so bye guys, stay cool :))

Why do I always want things that i cant have??

Hey guys, been a long time since i posted anything, i wonder if anyone even reads this thing.

so lets back up to last week, i started school last week and my week was awesome, the guys there are awesome (but not as awesome as some certain few ;) ) and i started the day off with the principal and head of middle school showing me and some others around, i wasnt the only one havng the first day i guess, there was a girl whos in my class, her lil bro, and 2 other guys, ones my age the other 12, plainly it was an awesome week,

 after a holiday longer than summer i'm finally bck in school. but i wish i wasnt such an asshole, some of them dontt like me i guess but most of them do, and theres also another fadhli who i'm cool with. the school is gigantic it took me the whole week just to figure out where my classes are.

notice my title there?? if ur interested to noe just ask me but i'm not telling evryone just a lucky few, and i hope dey ask cuz i really need some support and for sumone to call me an asshole and tell me wat to do

so back to school, after a few days i finally evrybody in my class' names and it wasnt easy, u neo i feel like i've forgotten how to be the new kid, cuz i've been so used to being in KAS and being the "old" person, i'm so used to teaching sumone than being taught about so many new things, well i hope after a few more weeks i'll find away around my problems

its been a long time since i been so depressed and happy at the same time, u noe wat, screw my problems , if they come and gonna beat them so hard tehy wont ever come back, i'm lucky to have the life i have right now, thanks for teaching me dat sofi and izzana, i need to keep my head held up high, and be happy with the life i got and stop complaining, i'm gonna make a mid year resolution for myself, be happy and grateful for what i have now, allah has blessed with a great life and i will live it to the fullest, and now people of mine , i will go back to my awesomeness which hast left for a good amount of time and now i will embrace it firmly and not overdose on it XDD

i nvr knew how blog wirting could make me realize sumthing so simple yet very annoying

and now my people i will bid you good day
XDD

hey guys
finally got enough "rajin-ness" to update me blooog
XDD
so nothing much happened lately, i learned how to drive a motor cycle last week XDD
so i'm feeling a bit proud :))

i dont have anything to rant this week, its been smooth sailing for most of the time and nothing interesting has come up

still missing dat one person who i havent seen since last year but kinda i;m kinda hooked on
i wonder... XDD
so uhh these days i'm paying a lot of attention to normal stuff,
u noe tv shows, radio stations, people etc. anything dat includes social activities
for some reason i;m always interested in peoples behaviors, habits, personality etc.
donno y, just am, n i THINK/HOPE dat i've gotten pretty good at it, some people come to me for advice on people, and often i liek to gve advice to those who have problems with their relationships, but on subjects like those i'm a bit of a hypocrite becuz some of the advice i gve people would be stuff i wouldnt hve the guts to do, well evryone is a hypocrite at one thing or another


ok den on another unrelated subject,
my nephew haiqal (keke) just had his third (or was it fourth) birth day wooohooooo
but for some reason i dont really care for birthdays, but apparently my family does so they got on with the party etc.
when i tell people i'm not a bday person theyre like "O.O WTF U DONT CARE ABOUT BDAYS"
well just isnt my thing, i mean to me its just another day, nothing special about just a day when u get older
speaking about bdays, for some reason turning 15 next year scares me, even scarier when i remembered sofi and izzy are turning 15 THIS year, i donno why
i mean why it scares me, i think its because last year i was 13 and i'm thinking "wow these 15year olds are really tall and old n adult (ish)
so i'm thinking to myself, o.o me getting old
lemme stay 14 DX

on another topic
i bored out of my mine, i mean this the longest i've gone without school, without the bustle of people coming out of class to go eat lunch and without the constant teacher explaining shit dat i dont even get, dis is why i'm loving the tusyen classes, it reminds of wat school is like, making teachers pissed, talking with frens, the constant shout of "DUDESSS WATS NUMBER 2????" plus the staring at girls thing (or just staring at the girl in my phone XDD, me no tell u who XDD) me like just hanging out with frens, eating food, kicking, punching, talking sarcastic and the sounds of the constant hum of people just living life

u noe how weird it is when u spent a month at a place at its just pulls u even though it was a year ago i mean, ders this place dat i hung out for about a month but i left cuz i just couldnt handle the stress of being the new kid, being the lowest in every class, all the social things, the total ignorance that some/most malays have, being the kid who got in at a "elite" school by having his dad having the president dude pull some strings on the system, so i thought "hey when i'm form 3 and get awesome results in PMR i could go back to that place"
but nooooooo, my dad had me go to a international school, n i'm not even going der until april 26
but going to an international school like nexus has its perks, for one, my age group in the international british system puts me in year 9 which is the equivalent of form 3 in normal malaysian system so even when i have to go through the compulsory year 12 which is the equivalent of the non-compulsory form 6, my cousin and other people my age are still going or just finished form 5, plus when i graduate i would already get my diploma which puts ahead by one year which is awesome XDD
i'm still annoyed by the time period of waiting =.=

well dats all i guess, feel free to comment or watever i wonder who ever reads dis *grasshoppers chirping*
ok den byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Rants

you noe how people always have to let their feelings out somehow??

some people break stuff, i would break stuff but i cant afford it

some people punch pillows or stuffed garfield or talk to cat (which is kinda creepy)

me? i rant

i rant.. alot

i mean just ask izzana and sofi

deyre my rant-listeners/readers

to calm my self down, my first choice would be these two and also elyana

but since none of them are online =.=

i will rant my stuff here

so to starts things off, i kinda hopped along for my cousins merentas desa/cross country marathon thing

i didnt actually join it since it was a school program, but i kinda ran when i wanted to XDD

and it was awesome, i ran ALOT

it felt great, it improved my self esteem

after that, i went with my cousin to send some of my cousins frens and his special "someone" back home, which was conveniently close to the gigantico park where we had the thing

we used a make shift path behind an apartment, it was awesome, it was a sort of like an adventurous path/ jungle trekking thing, it was fun, but i felt kinda paranoid cuz this guy about 15/16 years old was like stalking us or sumthing, but one person from the group i was following knew him so i after it was ok, but i was stilll wary of him

so when we finished the path i bought my cuz/brader/bro and his "special someone" (from now on i'm just gonna say S.S) some juice cuz i'm such a nice guy XDD

next topic : social

i'm gonna say dis, i'm getting fat

i mean the only place where i exercise is school and the park where i play with my brader/bro/cuz (lets call dis guy umm bob XDD) so and dats why i'm so freaked out about not going to school, plus, i really need some social time =.= me no freeeennns, me neeeeed people, dats why i'm so eager to go to these outings with bob, S.S and theyre frens, it gives me a sense of fitting it (plus i have a tiny crush on one of them XDD) but dats not gonna happen anytime soooon, i was really looking forward to the june outings :(( (i'll explain later)

following on: dreams

i feel so paranoid about MRSM

usually it wouldn worry me

but i'm dreamt about the place BEFORE i went der

and i keep having dreams about it and its people AFTER i went

i mean just dis last week i've been dreaming about dis person dat cannot be named dat goe to dat school

i mean dey could be just dreams but i ever since i found out dat der was dat one prophet had the knowledge to interpret dreams i thought, well, it might be my destiny, which i;m really big on

continuing into: people

for some reason i really hate seemingly "perfect" people, i dono why but those type of people really annoy me, i mean evryone is so into them and shit, even in tv i'm still annoyed by those type of people, the same thing with really popular people, people who have 10+ comments and 15+ likes on evry photo, its really annoying, i mean i'm not jealous or anything but imagine people putting up hundreds of pics of their recent trip and not get a single comment, it gives them a feeling not being wanted, even by close frens

another thing though

i'm attracted to violent girls

the type who chase people around trying to give them a huge smackdown, i do not noe why but these people, i really like

the type of people who pinch people without a reason (its fun unless its being done excessively)

especially girls who plays violent games and shouts out DIE DIE DIE

like this one girl was trying out a ps3 at this shop and was doing just dat

i was attracted immediately

ok i think i'm done ranting

btw i also did this for another reason

to try and cheer up someone who had a recent break up

so yeaah

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

//For S.S

Aku tau masa skang nih x elok untuk ko, tpi aku rse, ko perlu biar kan die untuk sementara, kalau die jodoh ko, mungkin korang akan bersambung balik, untuk sementara waktu ambik kesempatan untuk mencari diri dlm sendiri, dah lme kan couple?? skang nih ambik kesempatan untuk tahu aper yang KAU nak, bukan aper yang KORANG nak, ingat kan diri tu sapa dan bukan sebagai couple tpi secara individu, dan walaupon korang dh clash, aku harap aku bleh kwn ngan ko ngan jue ngan syafika agi, selain korang aku x der kwn kat SMKST tuh :)

Love Hurts

Did u noe, dat the best things in life, are also the worst.
take friendship for example, sure you have those times where you have an extremely fun times,
den imagine of those frens leaving, sucks right?
den take love, you have dat feeling inside of u, such warmth when your with dat person, such happiness, den when ur not, its like being in hell on earth, i noe dis first hand, and a few other people does too (u noe who u r) , after my first gf, i learned dat love is hard, and to never use the word love until ur really really sure cuz love is one of the strongest words in the english vocab
dats why i'm really hate it when people just say "i love u" so casually, n dey dont take it seriously
dey say it like "i LURV u" or "I <3 u" or sum shit like dat, i mean seriously, dats just insulting the word, taking away the real meaning of it
so why do people do it?
cuz deyre lame
i just watched this movie, its called "Little Manhattan"
awesome movie
its about dis ten year old kid with nearly divorced parents
who finds love with an eleven year old girl
but hes more mature den most guys i noe
and lets face it
deyre pretty young to be inlove
WHY, WHY DOES LOVE HURTS
you see i have umm small, ok big crush on someone, it might be even more but i wanna be really sure bfor i say it,
but yeah
i miss her
shes in asrama u noe?
which is sad
i wonder how adults noe if they found "the one"
i bet its relly hard
i mean seriously
and how come kids can feel dis stuff
but if we dont
why does it feel like we do
i'm not sure if u get wat i mean
i wanna noe if it's real
i have a fren
whos parents have the best love story ever
met in a boarding school at age 13
dated till high school finished
at ended up marrying
i wanna see how much of my frens end up like dat
i hope i do
well
i'm gonna end dis post now
p/s its been about 11 months now since i last updated my blog
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee