you noe how people always have to let their feelings out somehow??
some people break stuff, i would break stuff but i cant afford it
some people punch pillows or stuffed garfield or talk to cat (which is kinda creepy)
me? i rant
i rant.. alot
i mean just ask izzana and sofi
deyre my rant-listeners/readers
to calm my self down, my first choice would be these two and also elyana
but since none of them are online =.=
i will rant my stuff here
so to starts things off, i kinda hopped along for my cousins merentas desa/cross country marathon thing
i didnt actually join it since it was a school program, but i kinda ran when i wanted to XDD
and it was awesome, i ran ALOT
it felt great, it improved my self esteem
after that, i went with my cousin to send some of my cousins frens and his special "someone" back home, which was conveniently close to the gigantico park where we had the thing
we used a make shift path behind an apartment, it was awesome, it was a sort of like an adventurous path/ jungle trekking thing, it was fun, but i felt kinda paranoid cuz this guy about 15/16 years old was like stalking us or sumthing, but one person from the group i was following knew him so i after it was ok, but i was stilll wary of him
so when we finished the path i bought my cuz/brader/bro and his "special someone" (from now on i'm just gonna say S.S) some juice cuz i'm such a nice guy XDD
next topic : social
i'm gonna say dis, i'm getting fat
i mean the only place where i exercise is school and the park where i play with my brader/bro/cuz (lets call dis guy umm bob XDD) so and dats why i'm so freaked out about not going to school, plus, i really need some social time =.= me no freeeennns, me neeeeed people, dats why i'm so eager to go to these outings with bob, S.S and theyre frens, it gives me a sense of fitting it (plus i have a tiny crush on one of them XDD) but dats not gonna happen anytime soooon, i was really looking forward to the june outings :(( (i'll explain later)
following on: dreams
i feel so paranoid about MRSM
usually it wouldn worry me
but i'm dreamt about the place BEFORE i went der
and i keep having dreams about it and its people AFTER i went
i mean just dis last week i've been dreaming about dis person dat cannot be named dat goe to dat school
i mean dey could be just dreams but i ever since i found out dat der was dat one prophet had the knowledge to interpret dreams i thought, well, it might be my destiny, which i;m really big on
continuing into: people
for some reason i really hate seemingly "perfect" people, i dono why but those type of people really annoy me, i mean evryone is so into them and shit, even in tv i'm still annoyed by those type of people, the same thing with really popular people, people who have 10+ comments and 15+ likes on evry photo, its really annoying, i mean i'm not jealous or anything but imagine people putting up hundreds of pics of their recent trip and not get a single comment, it gives them a feeling not being wanted, even by close frens
another thing though
i'm attracted to violent girls
the type who chase people around trying to give them a huge smackdown, i do not noe why but these people, i really like
the type of people who pinch people without a reason (its fun unless its being done excessively)
especially girls who plays violent games and shouts out DIE DIE DIE
like this one girl was trying out a ps3 at this shop and was doing just dat
i was attracted immediately
ok i think i'm done ranting
btw i also did this for another reason
to try and cheer up someone who had a recent break up
so yeaah
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
//For S.S
Aku tau masa skang nih x elok untuk ko, tpi aku rse, ko perlu biar kan die untuk sementara, kalau die jodoh ko, mungkin korang akan bersambung balik, untuk sementara waktu ambik kesempatan untuk mencari diri dlm sendiri, dah lme kan couple?? skang nih ambik kesempatan untuk tahu aper yang KAU nak, bukan aper yang KORANG nak, ingat kan diri tu sapa dan bukan sebagai couple tpi secara individu, dan walaupon korang dh clash, aku harap aku bleh kwn ngan ko ngan jue ngan syafika agi, selain korang aku x der kwn kat SMKST tuh :)