Why do I always want things that i cant have??

Hey guys, been a long time since i posted anything, i wonder if anyone even reads this thing.

so lets back up to last week, i started school last week and my week was awesome, the guys there are awesome (but not as awesome as some certain few ;) ) and i started the day off with the principal and head of middle school showing me and some others around, i wasnt the only one havng the first day i guess, there was a girl whos in my class, her lil bro, and 2 other guys, ones my age the other 12, plainly it was an awesome week,

 after a holiday longer than summer i'm finally bck in school. but i wish i wasnt such an asshole, some of them dontt like me i guess but most of them do, and theres also another fadhli who i'm cool with. the school is gigantic it took me the whole week just to figure out where my classes are.

notice my title there?? if ur interested to noe just ask me but i'm not telling evryone just a lucky few, and i hope dey ask cuz i really need some support and for sumone to call me an asshole and tell me wat to do

so back to school, after a few days i finally evrybody in my class' names and it wasnt easy, u neo i feel like i've forgotten how to be the new kid, cuz i've been so used to being in KAS and being the "old" person, i'm so used to teaching sumone than being taught about so many new things, well i hope after a few more weeks i'll find away around my problems

its been a long time since i been so depressed and happy at the same time, u noe wat, screw my problems , if they come and gonna beat them so hard tehy wont ever come back, i'm lucky to have the life i have right now, thanks for teaching me dat sofi and izzana, i need to keep my head held up high, and be happy with the life i got and stop complaining, i'm gonna make a mid year resolution for myself, be happy and grateful for what i have now, allah has blessed with a great life and i will live it to the fullest, and now people of mine , i will go back to my awesomeness which hast left for a good amount of time and now i will embrace it firmly and not overdose on it XDD

i nvr knew how blog wirting could make me realize sumthing so simple yet very annoying

and now my people i will bid you good day
XDD